I didn't want to get up today. I got up anyway and got called back about that job, which I accepted on better terms than expected. Yay! Looking in my closet I realized that my suits were pretty much it for my business casual selection, as I'd worn most everything to it's faded end, and destroyed the remainder when I was in construction. (You know those days that are all committed to inspectors, and engineers and you think, "Nah, I won't actually do any real work today," so you look nice and then you end up cutting a trench?) It was time to think about wearing something other than paint stained jeans and T's, as I feel full suits are a bit flashy for day-to-day.

I then proceeded to shop for nice clothes. I got some. But as I was shopping I went into HMV to buy the Amy Winehouse CD and the 2 for 25 thing got me. A ha! I retaliated by going into Coles and compensating with books! That'll show em. Copeland, Gibson! I've missed you. Thought I'd try The World Without Us by Alan Weisman too. I even got my first ever Dummies book. I'm so tired I don't think I can read tonight. The potential of having some money coming in soon has gone to my head and apropos, I have a headache. This binge should last me quite a while.

So I was vacuuming with my new Bissell today. I only spent $80 on it! I don't know whether it's a good machine or my place is just truly dirty. This apartment was built 2 years ago and shouldn't have such an accumulation of filth. I just finished the hall. A hallway that filled the canister on the machine. Wow. It sucked the dirt right out from under the carpet. (Carpets are secretly more filthy than cats, rats and bats combined. I'm not sure why people use the stuff anywhere but a rec room, really, it traps and keeps hidden all sorts of disturbing motes, insects..ugh...can't continue.)

I'm hoping that as I clean over the weekend, I will be convinced that my place is clean. (You know how when you just move in, you don't trust your environment to be sanitary until you clean it half a dozen times, the way _you_ clean?) Maybe that's just me.

I've applied to many opportunities in the last three days, most notably at RBC Dexia. Dexia was just being invented when I left RBC a couple of years ago and I'm actually excited to see if they can take me in, here in Calgary. I need a job: and they have jobs for which my background makes me a very suitable candidate. Nonetheless I'm nervous. I really don't like it when a job search takes more than a couple of days, and I really want to go back to RBC as it's the devil I know, it's downtown, and they're located over that indoor garden habitat that soothes me. Jesse took me there once and I would love to go there on my lunches when it's too cold to go to Prince's Island.

I am going to stop hunting for the day and spin around in nervous circles hoping for a call.

I really enjoy having my own PC in use. Hopefully one of you can point me in the direction of Jon's wedding photos.

I can't find my cable for my camera, so I will show you pics of my new place at some point after I organize my studio room. It's really nice here. I've jumped in with both feet again as usual. Jesse and I are now co-habiting, at least when he gets his days off: the rest of the time he's 10 hours north of here getting buried in mud. His recent insanity has faded, curbed by the realization that he needs the patch to quit smoking, and he appreciates me again. We have really good communication together and are working through our respective insecurities. He cooks too.

Things are good. I haven't gotten a job yet, but my credit is helping me hang on. My cards are pretty hot though, getting lots of use buying couches--what a great deal we got!--and other nice things to make a wonderful comfortable home. My bathroom is a haven from the mess of the rest of the house, and I can't believe how many pots and pans and baking things I actually own. It is so nice to see my books again and have all my supplies at my fingertips. Imagine not having your stuff for 13 years. Imagine finally seeing why you stored it all in the first place. I want to find a job that pays enough to keep this place should things not work out, but to contradict that, I'm also trying to find Jesse a good job in town. I don't want to move again for a long time. I'm exhausted and my back is only now starting to mend. I helped Brandy move, my brother, and my parents, (the parents' move was HUGE and took 2 months.) Then I moved my own stuff twice and finally am starting to unpack again.

The next foreseeable issues are to get a job and to turn myself and my truck all Albertan. This will be expensive and annoying. My truck is 30 years old and will have to pass an inspection. I bet that's going to cost me lots, unless I do it the shady way. It's not unsafe, I just dumped over 10 grand into it, it just doesn't have a horn or a parking break. I don't know anyone out here for that though. I will probably have to get glasses/contacts in order to get a license. Luckily I have 3 months before I legally have to do these things. Albertans don't have the equivalent of OHIP either, so I'd have to pay for health care. Such a wealthy province doesn't have health care, it's absurd. They also don't recycle. For shame.


Anyhow, I've procrastinated long enough and have to start assembling this huge Ikea shelf thing.